LIFE UPDATE - MOVING OUT, BINGE EATING, RESPONSIBILITIES & MORE

Hi, gosh it's been far too long for me. I haven't updated this blog in a while now and truthfully, more than one thing has happened.

While I wish I could go on into details but I decided to pick up the pen (or type on a keyboard in this case) and refocus on updating this blog regularly.

Sure, I still LOVE skincare and makeup. I will try my best to update those topic too from time to time.

But if I'm honest, I want to mix it up a bit. Course that won't be too great for niche but I don't really care about that.

But anyway, I am here to share a bit of an eating problem I develop.

So speed run to 2023, I moved out of my parents. From a small girl in Kelantan, I moved to a bigger city. 

And as excited as I was for the opportunity, there are some several drawbacks.

First, living so far away from my parents has forced me to realize the drawbacks of being an adult. Before, it felt somewhat tolerable.

But now, everything is on me. From bills to groceries, it made me have a sense newfound of gratitude towards my parents and the financial tool of raising three kids by themselves.

Aside from that, I developed a horrible eating habit.

I am no doctor, nutritionist or diettian. But I don't think my eating is normal.

Now, working in a small company has its many perks but I found myself binge eating due to the lack of social interaction.

I do feel ashamed of it. But I am sharing here just to let people know they're not alone.

And this hopefully can be a platform where I put my writing to creative use again. 

Yeah, so for a week, I would spend at least 4 to 5 times in a week - ordering out. And it's not the healthy tom yam at kedai Thai sort of takeouts.

It's KFC, Marrybrown, McDonald's, and all that other things. From 60 kilograms, I went to 67 kilograms.

I was ashamed at myself.

I was ashamed to look in the mirror and realized what I become.

Eating all those foods, I was trying to curb the loneliness and cope with the lack of emotional connection. 

It felt so good eating. Ever experienced foodgasm? That's basically it. 

But you know what comes after that?

Shame, guilt, weight gain.

Not only this has been hurting my weight and body, but it's also been hurting my finances as well.

So despite making a higher salary than in my previous jobs, I still suffer.

Realizing how bad my problems are, I honestly think it's time to make a change.

Aside from working out and walking to work daily, I am thinking of cooking more often by following easy recipes by Syiqin Azrin , Nutrition by Kylie and The Foodie Takes Flight. If you have any other foodies that make easy to follow recipes, let me know in the comments!

Honestly, I don't think my life is that interesting to share it on this platform. 

But hopefully, it becomes my motivation to keep a healthier lifestyle and cope with some issues I am trying to overcome.

I guess I do plan on making a what I eat sorta idea but we'll see how that goes.

Till then, take care, and thanks for reading!